Sex and Age and Mormon Bishops and Confession of Sexual Sins

We never get too old for sex. And we shouldn’t be. We are sexual beings until our last breath or exhalation. Sexual energy is what moves our soul and our spirit.

“There is a light that shines beyond all things on earth, beyond us all, beyond the heavens, beyond the highest, the very highest heavens. This is the Light that shines in our heart.”

Chandogya Upanishad (circa 7 th to 8 th century B.C.E.) Sacred philosophical Hindu literature.

That is our energy our heart our sexuality. I was lucky I never felt guilty about sex. I had been making out with a guy not a boyfriend or anything just a guy. And I went home and was walking to my grandma’s house for some reason. She lived about 100 yards from our house.

I stopped and looked up into the sky. And the stars were like diamonds in the velvet black of night. So many of them and I had this intense feeling of being whole and complete. I connected that with the making out session. And I never felt remorse or guilt about anything attached to sex after that. Although I didn’t know it at the time that was a glimpse of enlightenment.

When I was young we were called into to the Mormon Bishop’s office to confess our sexual sins. I found this very odd and now looking back on it really creepy. They would ask me if I was immoral or if I had ever been molested by a boy and I would always say no. And I wasn’t lying. I wasn’t molested by boys and by my understanding I wasn’t being immoral. That was me and I think I was unusual. Most people were harmed by these interviews. It produced guilt and shame and feelings of unworthiness. This same sort of scenario is played out in many churches and homes and schools. When we are young, shame and guilt is used to try and control our sexual urges. When we age and are older it is the same in many ways. We don’t want to think of older people as sexual. Women are often referred to as old and dried up and men as limp, but neither is true. Still once again we begin to feel shame about our desires and our bodies.

It would seem to make sense that these feelings of shame guilt would disappear as we grow older.  However, a funny thing happens. As we age and our bodies change and our feelings change about life and sex and love those old feelings of shame from puberty come back to haunt us. Women claim they don’t feel like having sex. They feel content without it. When asked to explain it often comes out they don’t feel like older people should be sexual sort of like how they were told that young people weren’t allowed to be sexual.

At a time in our lives when we need physical touch and intimacy the most, both sexes have a tendency to reject it. The saddest thing to me is to see a couple that is married and friendly but haveimages (12) given up on intimacy. I wanted to get this much up and posted and tomorrow write more about age and Tantra communication

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